ah weekend!

Sometimes I really think that 'weekend' is a misnomer... I think I have more work to do at home sometimes than I do at work.  Or maybe it's that at work I don't have children, pets, and a spouse hindering my ability to complete a task LOL.

So while Kingston is watching Rio, all three of the dogs are napping and my husband is occupied with work of his own... maybe I can get the house clean, so that it can be a mess again by dinner...

Ah the life of a mommy and wife...

whirlwind...

Stuff is happening fast in our house lately.  The summer is flying by, the puppy is growing and Kingston is ever changing.

It's crazy at work, lots to do and thank God we are prepared for it.  Jerod and I are enjoying all of the good things that are coming our way right now, but we are keeping in mind that the storm is coming.  Sooner than later, because all of the ducks are in a row for us... In a few short weeks, the paperwork will be piling up and things will be set in motion.

While there has been drama lately, I find that I am not even surprised anymore... while I don't appreciate being called the 'C' word in front of my child and my neighbors - the classless mouth that it came out of will need to try a little harder to get under my skin.  I am not a doormat, I am not afraid to tell her to shut her mouth, and most of all, I am just tired of the piece of shit that she is.  I am not afraid to tell her that either.

Mother is a term that should be held in the highest regard.  Her lack of care for the girls kills me.  I take better care of the fish at our house than she does of her own children.  To be a real mom - you have to put the work in.  Buy them clothes, spend time with them, take them for medical care when they need it, have a moral compass... I could go on forever.  Most of all - LOVE THEM. She doesn't deserve them, and hopefully the judge and GAL will agree.

I have taken on so many roles in life and I take each one with a grain.  I love ALL THREE of my children, whether I gave birth to them or not.  I will support my husband forever in his mission to give the girls a better life.  They are part of my heart too.

Here is to the future and all that it holds.  May our stressful road ahead be a short one, with a little rainbow at the end.

being mommy...

There are few things in life that I think are more important than the example that we set for our children, and the paths that we follow to mold them into healthy, well adjusted, functioning adults.

So what are you to do when no matter what effort you put forth, the other parent will not do what they should. And your children suffer because of their bad choices.  For us, it's another day in the life, but there is always that fear, that worry that no matter how we try to intervene, no matter how pure our intentions, things will never be as they should.

The truth in each of us comes out when we are pressured.  How the other parent will respond to the pressure is always a guessing game, and to us - it's also a risk.  Is the imbalance too great?  Will it push them over the edge?  What is our back up plan?  What is our safety?

Another weekend full of unsolicited information that tells the story that we always assume to be true.

Things I will never understand...

There are certain things that I will never understand... Like how there are parents that have 'favorite' children, or those that put themselves before their children. I don't care what I have going on, my son and step daughters come first.  The gift of motherhood or fatherhood is a gift that is not always bestowed to those that are deserving of such a blessing. There are too many children who are mistreated by people that should never have been parents. There is a special place in hell for people that hurt and neglect their kids... just saying. End rant.