giving up or giving in

one of the worst things we all experience is the loss of friendship in another. no matter how you came across that person, i believe that all people are put in our lives for a reason.  while not all of the people that are in our lives are people that we want, there is a reason that we are tested or are given the gift of their love or friendship. that being said, i am also a closure person, and i hate to leave anything unresolved.  i prefer honesty to sugar coating, and truth to bullshit.

i just hate when i am faced with feeling foolish for trusting the wrong people, even if i wanted them to be so much better than what everyone else saw that i didn't. what is worse are the friends that we lose to life in general.  you have kids, get married, start a new job.  and the worst of all is the shut down.  where one day you just don't matter, without rhyme or reason or maybe just without explanation.  all hurtful, all sad, and most - unnecessary.

so do you give up on someone just because they give up on you?  do you change your ways to suit their needs, is that something that you should compromise?  or do you tell yourself that if they really wanted to be in your life, that they would make an effort and wouldn't have given up on you in the first place.

i hate when i lack foresight in my relationships, of all kinds.  i always want to see the best in people or think that we all have good intentions.  unfortunately, i continue to be disappointed by putting myself out there for others, that do not have the same respect for me.

another day. another drama i guess.