Taking a breath

I cleaned like a mad woman today in an emotion fueled OCD driven mania. And it only made my anxiety worse today. I couldn't get anything organized enough. Nothing was clean enough. Thankfully I sat myself down and just read for a while. I read the entire book, getting lost in something else for a while. And just caught my breath. It was so good to tune out all of the thoughts in my head. All of the insecurities that I have all built up. All of the errant misconceptions and to-do lists. All of the nagging and sadness and anger. It was nice to not worry about anything for a few hours. I feel better right now than I have felt all week and hopefully I will sleep well.