enough.

double meaning to this post.  first of all, i have had more than enough of all of the drama and bullshit. i am tired, better yet, i am fucking EXHAUSTED with always being expected to be the bigger person, to keep my mouth shut and to act like everything is perfect when it's really a mess.

i am tired of choosing sides or not choosing sides or not being able to have an opinion or just live my own life because someone else doesn't like who i am or what i am or what i choose to be.  so enough.  this is me.  this is who i am.  i am not being someone else's person anymore.  i don't care if you like the company i keep.  or the choices that i make.  and i most of all if you can't say what you need to say then i have had enough of you too.  take your passive aggressive shit talking and shove it up your ass.  you'll find your own head their too. family is supposed to be all of the time. not when you fucking feel like it.

i am an adult.  have been for a long time, longer than i should have had to have been.  and you know what - i can't change that.  but you can bet that i can change those that i allow to affect my future and the future of my family.  it didn't have to be like this and it is not my fault.

this has been a long weekend of loss and anger and i am done with it all.